Wednesday, 18 October 2017

... Well, I thought I was back

Hey all, Blaise here.

My last update was about 6 months ago. I didn't mean for it to be this long, but once again my health and available time has been a barrier to EgaFem content both here and on YouTube.

I do enjoy writing and posting content for others to read, and I'm not making any promises but I may try to add more opinionated pieces which are easier to write and do not need heavily levels of research as some of my best work. However, I do enjoy it and that will help me get better.

I read some advice a while ago that I didn't take - in order to get better you need to practise. And in order to have the time to practise sometime you need to lower the quality. I am obsessed with accuracy and dislike to write on a topic without a decent amount of research - however, if I allow that sometimes I will be wrong and make it clear that my opinions are flexible with the right evidence put in front of me then perhaps I can open up and start to write more. These writings can turn into videos as I do enjoy having it all written and my thoughts in order before recording them.

Time is still a huge factor. I am still attempting to do way too much and it is no wonder I burnt out and became sick with the amount of stress was under. I still am under a lot of stress but self-care is hugely important and I find writing really helps with that.

What's important is that I am having fun and enjoying myself in my journey - while hopefully building up a following so when I am ready to get back into the real work and start making actual change I will have enough influence to get the ball rolling.

Again, no promises. Let's just wait and see how this works out and go with the flow. No pressure, just fun.

Sunday, 30 April 2017

I'm Back

Greetings all,

It's been nearly 3/4 of a year since I announced my hiatus. Since then work on EgaFem has been few and far between, however this was unfortunately necessary. EgaFem has always been in  my heart, I've found not doing it very difficult. It has never been far from my thoughts.

During my time off I have made a few small videos on the EgaFem YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXaN7a7gEQ9n7kcb50AbZDQ

I've also got a personal channel. I update this most days with a short video on anything. It explains some of the stuff I've been going through that has kept me from EgaFem: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC-Y0_t0GAP3PKPaXnLN2ygQ

However, I am getting better. I have a plan and hope to start producing a bit more content here and there, however this will be as and when I can. I have spread myself a little bit thin so feel a need to focus on specific platforms and topics. My primary platform will be the YouTube channel, so please subscribe to keep up to date. I won't always have the time or energy to update this website to highlight content.

I tend to put a link to new videos on my twitter feeds. My activism videos on @EgaFem and my personal video links on @DisTurqLlama so both are worth following.

Each of my videos is done using a different technique until I find one I am happy with. I need to find the balance between producing a reasonable quality video for you and not needing to edit it and spend too much time and energy on it for me. I am working on the assumption so long as the quality is watchable and not terrible you, the audience, would rather have more slightly lower quality videos than fewer better quality ones.

I also want to thank everyone for being so patient. I was terrified if I returned I would need to hit the ground running and be expected to produce content at the same rate I used too. I was scared I would break myself again.

But when I released recent videos the response has been fantastic. I was worried I would have to start from scratch and, although I understand my audience will have naturally reduced due to my inactivity, I was worried I would have to start all over in building up followers. So thank you everyone who has stuck with me during these really dark times. It means so much to me, and I'm so grateful to you all. It is because of you that I feel motivated and strong enough to return.

Content will be adhoc, as and when I can. But my fears have subsided and I am ready. I'm back. I have fallen, but you helped me pick myself up and I am ready to stand tall again, and hopefully have learnt my lessons to ensure I don't have a repeat of being forced to take a break. Your understanding in that has filled me with hope.

And so, with that in mind - here is my latest video: How to Make Anything a Gendered Issue